a thinking hiatus

by Holly on May 18, 2011

in blog stuff

Lately, I’ve found myself at a loss for words.

If you know me and my excessively wordy self, then you know this is an extremely rare phenomenon. It’s up there with upside down rainbows and me ironing my clothes for work. Things that happen every few years, if even that.

But then again, if you really know me, you’d also know that I didn’t talk until I was four years old and that deep down in my Everythingtarian soul, I am a thinker. And overthinker {but that’s another post for another time}.

Regardless, I’ve been not talking/thinking lately.

About the ridiculously comedic week I’ve just had.

About my unknown future.

About how I am going to afford the eight weddings I’ve been invited to this year.

About the fact time is passing all too fast for my liking.

About why I do the things I do and feel the way I feel.

About just how good the Trader Joe’s Cilantro JalapeƱo Hummus is.

I’ve been writing it down old-school style in a brand new journal my friend bought me instead of blogging about it. Because if I am going to have a bestselling memoir in 20 years, I’ve come to the necessary conclusion that I can’t share all my crazy stories now. I need to save some life anecdotes for when that fateful day comes that I can proudly call myself a published novelist.

And it will come.

I am going to make it come.

So yes, I am at a loss for words right now.

But in 20 years, I promise you’ll have plenty of words to read about exactly why I was kicked out of an undergrad bar called Whiskey River on Saturday night.



Kristen - Anywhere There's An Airport May 18, 2011 at 9:56 pm

I also have plenty that is as I call, un-posted. You have to save something for Oprah…err… her equivalent in 20 years! :)

Averie (LoveVeggiesandYoga) May 18, 2011 at 10:06 pm

I share no where near the full, unadulterated truth about life on my blog. What I write is 100% truthful. I just don’t share everything. Some things are just not for public consumption and yes, if we ever find ourselves best selling authors or running for office (never for me! haha!) we just dont need our entire life out there…no one does.

But I would love to hear your off the record stories, of course :)

Lauren http://theclimbingchef.blogspot.com/ May 18, 2011 at 10:28 pm

OMG, I love you! You crack me up….

I also didn’t talk for a very long time and sometimes I think that’s why I get frustrated when people don’t understand me. It took so long for words to come out of my mouth, shouldn’t they be understood and cherished now? Anyway… that’s what I think about that.

My sister bought me a new journal too and I have been writing in that a lot lately. But, I have made a strict rule not to write about my Ex in it. Too many cute journals waisted on him :)

On St. Patrick’s Day this year… I was thrown out of an undergrad college bar called The Bear (and I was sober… well, not drunk). It’s all good :)

Erica May 18, 2011 at 10:33 pm

;) Thats awesome that you’re keeping a journal! And if you publish a book- I’m definitely reading it!! Hope the rest of your week goes well

my little celebration May 18, 2011 at 10:39 pm

I heart you. lots. And I WILL read your book.

Katie @ Nourishing Flourishing May 18, 2011 at 10:39 pm

Well, don’t worry — if your novel doesn’t work out anytime soon, you can just submit your journals to Bravo as a proposal for a reality show. The odds are 100% that you will get a contract. Win-win, either way! Though one is, admittedly, far more glamorous. (I’m talking about the trashed-out, washed-up reality star lifestyle, obviously.)

Brenna [fabuleuxdestin] May 19, 2011 at 1:19 am

Whiskey River sounds like a classic. I love writing in my journal! Keep it up girl!

Adam Deane May 19, 2011 at 2:36 am

Eight weddings? Oh my gosh. I say you forego the book idea and start on a script for Wedding Crashers 2… asap. I will volunteer now to be your partner in crime. Chat tomorrow? Lemmeknowyo…

Sarah@The Flying ONION May 19, 2011 at 6:20 am

Oh yes! A book! This is a brilliant idea, and I know for a fact that you would have a ton of readers. :D

sofia May 19, 2011 at 6:31 am

i am glad you still get kicked out of bars. that means we’re gonna be a good match. just sayin’.

Alex @ IEatAsphalt May 19, 2011 at 7:05 am

I’m not totally sure how it happen, but I think we’re sharing the same brain waves. Do you ever feel stuck inside of your head? Thats what I struggle with the most. It’s difficult for me to share my thoughts and feelings with anyone, certainly most are not on my blog. I also think there is something wonderful about the gift of being able to sit in silence and be comfortable.
Hope things are going well your way! I always have more postcards for comedic relief.

alana (at) the food May 19, 2011 at 8:03 am

you’re so funny!
i’m sure you ge that all the time…

Kailey (SnackFace) May 19, 2011 at 8:19 am


I get it. Really and truly, I do.

And I miss you terribly!

Also, I think we’re soulmates. That nail polish you asked about was probably mint candy apple OR french affair. Essie, natch.


Madeline @ Greens and Jeans May 19, 2011 at 10:58 am

I love you. Lots and lots.

Michelle @ A Voracious Appetite May 19, 2011 at 11:17 am

Oh I’d love to read your memoir. I’m sure you great stories to share and I love your writing style!

Courtney May 19, 2011 at 11:19 am

… then I’m def outdoorsy. Bahaha.

Meister @ The Nervous Cook May 19, 2011 at 11:30 am

All in good time, lady. And all in a good time, re: getting kicked out of a bar. Hey, we’ve all been there before.

Allison R. May 19, 2011 at 12:03 pm

Hahahaha you were kicked out of Whisky Riv? I gotta hear this one…

Katie May 19, 2011 at 12:58 pm

I cannot wait to read your book someday. Sign me up for a copy, now?

Megan (Braise the Roof) May 19, 2011 at 1:04 pm

Well, there’s one difference between us: I believe I emerged from my mother’s womb spouting off soliloquies. But I feel ya- sometimes you just can’t put it all on the blog. We’ll still be here, if for nothing else but your wordless weekends. :)

Susan May 19, 2011 at 2:17 pm

My best friend calls this “brain constipation” (graphic, yet it works!). There’s a lot going on out there but for some reason it’s not time for it to come out yet. Either things need to be worked through a little more, things are too scary to say, things are overwhelming. But my favorite is when you’re SO close to having this huge “aha” moment but it’s not quite there. I feel some big “ahas” headed your way Holly!

Nichole @ Flirting with Food, Fitness & Fashion May 19, 2011 at 2:56 pm

I would read it! I think you are a great writer and enjoy reading your blog :)

Laura @ Sprint 2 the Table May 19, 2011 at 3:15 pm

I feel you on the word loss. Some days, I just don’t wanna talk/write/communicate with the outside world.

Once-upon-a-time (read: last fall), my friends and I got kicked out of a club. A strip club. One that was hosting “midget wrestling.” One of the strippers has my friend’s shirt. Good times.

Mary @ Bites and Bliss May 19, 2011 at 5:01 pm

You’ll make it all work and when you do, you’ll have a ton to write about!! Like those 8 weddings..that’s like a book right there. ;)

Betsy May 19, 2011 at 8:20 pm

haha whiskey river– such a fine establishment! they have had some pretty awesome live bands on the weekends. can’t wait till your novel is published so we can hear the story!

Pure2raw twins May 19, 2011 at 8:28 pm

I am an overthinker too, and worry way to much. I have been at lost of words too friend, but I know you will find your words again!

chelsey @ clean eating chelsey May 19, 2011 at 8:53 pm

You didnt talk until you were four? That’s kind of cool.

Stephanie@MyThornsHaveRoses May 19, 2011 at 8:59 pm

Hah. I always say that if I told all my stories on my blog I’d run out of juicy material for my book someday. :)

Wait a year and see if you won’t change your mind on the 20 year promise. Please. :)

Shannon May 20, 2011 at 11:05 am

I think what my problem is is that I tell too much about myself! But I’m not embarrased about it and being that I really don’t have much of a life, I might as well share what I’ve got!
I totally under stand what you mean about time going by way too fast! It’s scary that it’s the middle of the year already! How does that happen. I feel like I turned 21 yesterday and then I blinked and all of a sudden it’s 7 years later! Slow down time, just slow down!!!!!

Kate @ NaturaStride May 20, 2011 at 2:49 pm

Good idea – let the thoughts “marinate”! Have a nice weekend :)

amanda May 20, 2011 at 5:26 pm

i’ll read it when it hits barnes and noble’s bookshelves.


Jess May 21, 2011 at 6:33 pm

LOVE that photo–hilarious..I’ve been thinking TOO much lately.

Heather @ Get Healthy With Heather May 21, 2011 at 8:08 pm

When you publish a book I know I’ll love every minute of reading it!

Brooke May 24, 2011 at 11:47 am

I LOVE YOU! AND I WANNA SEE YOUR HURR! And tell me why you got kicked out of undergrad bar? DRINKIN? DANCIN? DRINKIN AND DANCIN? BECAUSE LET’S DO THOSE THINGS TOGETHER! Then eat TJ cilantro hummus because I just bought TJ triple layer that includes cilantro hummus and it’s my favorite thing EVER. EVER! EVER EVER!

Spastic comment.

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