Frustration, release.

by Holly on April 13, 2010

in breakfast,dinner,lunch,recipes,seriousness

If I were to take a cue from elementary school and make an acrostic name poem (which, when I was in 4th grade, I most likely called “a name poem where each letter of your name is an word to describe you”), it would look like this…

Happy

Optimistic

Likes to laugh

Loyal

Young

Usually.

Sometimes, I can be more like this…

Histrionic

Obnoxious

Lazy

Livid

Yappy

And if there was an F in my name, it would definitely stand for one thing: frustrated.

Because truth be told, I get frustrated easily. Very easily.

Sometimes, it’s as silly as articles of clothing that fade from one color to another…

source

Ugh, total pet peeve. No offense to anyone who owns articles of ombre.

Other times, it’s people’s stupidity that gets me…

source

Thank you Heidi Montag for reinforcing the cultural stereotype that women must be thin, well-endowed and answer to mercy of men.  How can us feminists ever thank you for delaying gender equality one oversized implant at a time?

Perhaps a double D-sized hug?

There is almost nothing that gets me more frustrated than rude people.  Yes, please walk by me without saying a word after I’ve asked said, “Hello, how are you?”  Or yes, please tell me all about your fantastic, wonderful day when you know I’ve just had a shitty one myself.  How’s about forgetting such simple things as “please” and “thank you?” In the words of Bon Qui Qui, rue.

There’s a silent D in there, FYI.

However, my biggest frustration?

ME.

I get mad at myself for starting the day off with a balanced, healthy breakfast…

1 cup organic skim milk
3/4 cup frozen raspberries
1/2 banana
2 T brown rice protein powder
1 cup baby spinach
sprinkle of unsweetened shredded coconut
1/4 cup Not Sweet Vanilla Galaxy Granola

…only to stuff my face with such treats as a decadent (yes, decadent!) peach scone from the maker of the world’s best scones...

…as well as an insanely large number of uncontrollable handfuls of peanut M&Ms.

I do. I get frusrated.  I get mad.  And I let it get to me.

I try to channel that frustration into doing something positive, like giving my body the nutrition it needs via veggies + nooch-ified hummus

1 cup cooked garbanzos
1 T tahini
1 T minced garlic
2 T olive oil
salt + pepper, to taste
1 T water
1/4 cup nutritional yeast (a.k.a. nooch)

Inevitably, I often just let other extraneous things bring me right back to frustrated.  Work, deadlines, people, goals, relationships, time, money, stress…you name it, I’ve been frustrated by it.

As always, that’s when I turn to Mama Everythingtarian.

Even though I know what she is going to say; for some reason, I still need to hear it from her anyways. Her wise words of wisdom are usually phrased something like this…

“Holly, don’t worry about what you can’t control.  Figure out what you can control, and fix it.”

Well said Mama, well said.

I can’t control most things.  Mother Nature has the weather taken care of; my bosses outline what I need to do and when it should be done; Target controls my bank account; and a higher power (whatever that is you believe in) usually takes care of the rest.

One thing I can control: my reaction to things.

I can cry, vent, yell, scream, get angry and frustrated, but then I need to let it go.  According to Mama Everythingtarian, I need to take a cue from Timbaland and just release.  Because even though I may be outta control and out of body, frustration gets me nowhere.

Being histrionic, obnoxious, lazy, livid and yappy most likely won’t get me anywhere either – unless it’s perhaps an acrostic name poem competition.

What I need to do is fuel my body the RIGHT way (with a protein pancake sandwich, of course)…

…and control what I can control, which at the moment includes finishing my freelance writing project, paying my bills and taking one, huge, long and DEEP breath.

Then, I need to get my eight hours of sleep and worry about tomorrow, well…tomorrow.

Because….

Releasing

Everything

Lets

Every

Action

Seem

Easier

{ 42 comments }

Amy B @ Second City Randomness April 13, 2010 at 10:00 pm

I don’t like the color fade clothes either… and not just because the dress you posted a pic of looks like a used tampon. Sorry, but it does, right?

I love the quote from Mama E! Such good advice!

Erica April 13, 2010 at 10:04 pm

ahhh! I hear ya. We all have those days. The veggies + nooch-ified hummus look fantastic. Tomorrow will be a million times better. I just know it. <3 ya!

Angharad April 13, 2010 at 10:06 pm

Ohhh honey bun. I hear ya. That dress is heinous. Heidi should be shot. Rude people are the bane of my life.
Gorging on crap makes me mad at myself too.

Also: sleep, knowing tomorrow is wednesday, a good breakfast in the morning and some Glee will likely cheer you up. Hearts to you lovexxxxxxx

Lizzy April 13, 2010 at 10:16 pm

my lovely holly! let me tell you that you are never alone! i want to tell you though that eating hand full after hand full of peanut m&m’s is god’s way of telling us that they are sooooooooo amazing and he wants are bellys to be happy. I had about 4 heaping handfuls just 30 minutes ago and they were delish! u just keep on smiling girl and i know that you will find it in yourself to release this frustration in some good yoga or a run and perhaps a fun visit to the grocery store, cause god knows that makes me smile too! :) love you chica!

Erika April 13, 2010 at 10:16 pm

ugggggh heidi is so unattractive to me! a) she looks like she’s going to face plant from her boobs weighing her down, and b) SHE might think she’s “skinny” but i can promise you if she was being chased by a wild mountain lion (ok.. or a DOG…) she wouldn’t be fit enough to save herself. or smart enough. end story.

i mean the scone looks good, but you clearly haven’t been to isles bun & bakery in Uptown. (http://www.flickr.com/photos/mannaoj/2270244548/) famous for their sticky cinnamon twists (puppy tails) but bommmb scones too. take a break. come minni-apple with me and angharad!

Matt April 13, 2010 at 10:35 pm

Hang in there! We all have days like that and you just gotta stay strong!

Run Sarah April 13, 2010 at 10:55 pm

I totally hear you – great post. Mama Everythingtarian has some wise wise words that I will def take to heart. Thanks for sharing. PS – peanut m&ms? Someone on the airplane was eating them next to me – I wanted some SO badly I *almost* asked her…need to get my hands on a pack, pronto.

Madeline - Greens and Jeans April 13, 2010 at 11:55 pm

Mama’s always know what’s up, don’t they? I’ve had one of those weeks too recently. As long as I putter away at the things I CAN control, I know I’m doing my part and I can only hope the rest falls into place! Massive double D hug headed your way!

Molly April 14, 2010 at 1:50 am

Just breathe Hol :) Love the post, love you, and well said Mama Ev!!!!

Mimi (Damn the Freshman 15) April 14, 2010 at 2:59 am

Oh dear, YES! I’ve had to force myself to take the attitude of “Stop worrying about making the wrong decision until the wrong decision is bitchslapping you across the face,” because I waste too much energy thinking about things beyond my control. I’m getting better, sloooooooowly…I think.

Those protein pancakes look amazing!

Jessica @ How Sweet It Is April 14, 2010 at 5:37 am

I have days like that often…

Oh Heidi…what a disaster.

Chelsea @ (Chelsea's Chew and Run Fun) April 14, 2010 at 5:51 am

I get frustrated with myself constantly for my lack of will around indulgent eats (read: last night’s dark chocolate covered pretzel splurge). Releasing it, as your wonderful acrostic poem at the end of this post suggests, gives you a much a lighter feeling that can help you start anew with more peace of mind.

And Heidi? I don’t even know where to begin…she’s the poster girl for a culture that has been vacuumed up by its vacuous ways.

Lauren April 14, 2010 at 6:00 am

Oh my love, we ALL have those days when we are way too hard on ourselves. I hope you don’t think that these days make up the kind of person you are because Holly, you are AMAZING!!!!!! And trust me, if that delicious looking scone was placed in front of me, it would be devoured in seconds too! Wow, sometimes you just need to eat things as good as that and not worry about it one bit! :)

I love you to death girl!

PS- Loved the references to Heidi….what a joke!!!

Jenna April 14, 2010 at 6:38 am

just remember tomorrow is always a new day!!

Abby April 14, 2010 at 6:40 am

“H” could also stand for “human,” as that’s exactly what you are, my dear! There are ups and downs and lawyers and M&Ms and everything in between–including deliciously healthy meals mixed with splurges and sage advice from those we love and trust. You’re a bit hard on yourself, but I’m not one to talk, as I totally get it (especially Target–just went last night for “one” thing. Grrr…)

Hang in there!

Whitney @ Lettuce Love April 14, 2010 at 7:15 am

Moms are the best! My mom gave me the exact same advice a few months ago. I really can’t stress about things that are beyond my control, I can only fix my stuff. And Heidi Montag – what is wrong with that girl? She should cash in the boobs for some serious therapy.

Crunchy Granola Gal April 14, 2010 at 7:27 am

that picture is pretty effin’ gross. i think any sane/ sort of normal guy would agree that that’s not what they’re realistically looking for in a woman. too look at in a magazine? sure. but beyond that, it’s just unnatural. anywho, i hope things are lookin’ up for you! :)

Maura April 14, 2010 at 7:49 am

FAB post! I often find myself in the same position. I worry about things I have no power over. Letting my frustration about work, med school apps, relationships, friendships, etc get the best of me. My mom often counters with thats why God (or whomever/whatever you may believe in) made mothers/fathers/best friends/siblings (you get my point) They are there to be your confidence & strength when you can’t find it within. They’re also there to say “Snap out of it, and GET A GRIP.” Which is often exactly what I need to hear. :)

Ally (Sweet & Savory) April 14, 2010 at 8:41 am

Ha – great post! Doesn’t mama always put things in perspective? And holy yum…that scone looks delicious.

brandi April 14, 2010 at 8:58 am

why are our moms always right? :)
(((hugs))) Holly! Tomorrow is always a new day.

The Fit Collegiate April 14, 2010 at 9:04 am

I loved this post, very poetic! Reminded me of e.e. cummings haha :-)

Kristen April 14, 2010 at 9:08 am

Hi Holly,

I can really identify with this post…especially this week. Feeling overwhelmed by life and getting it all done etc… my friend gave me the exact same advice… “you don’t have to conrol everything, focus on one thing at a time, make your best decisions at the time, and the rest will work itself out.” I believe that God (or the Universe, or whoever people beleive in) really has our best interest at heart, that (for example – aka my stress) he will not let the love of my life pass me by because I have a busy and tiring week and can’t fit it all in. One day, decision, date at a time! =) “wooo saaaa” <— Bad Boys II anyone?? Have a great Wednesday!

samantha April 14, 2010 at 9:57 am

you should win the pulitzer for acrostic poems.

but seriously, i hear you. it’s so hard to suppress that rising feeling of OHMYGODIWANTTOPUNCHSOMEONE, but once it’s released, things can be looked at from a different, clearer perspective.

also, i hate bills. just sayin’.

Kristie April 14, 2010 at 10:16 am

Oh honey, I hope you are running into some more pleasant people today. I really get frustrated when I say hi and how are you to people and they just completely ignore me too! I mean, what gives? Is it really that hard to say hi back?

Katie April 14, 2010 at 10:37 am

There’s a big ole silent F in my name, too… I am impatient, short-tempered, and majorly frustratable. However… we can stop ourselves! Deep breaths help, as does realizing when supremely negative attitudes are coursing through our veins and brains… yesterday I heard myself venting and complaining to a friend and knew I probably wasn’t making either of us any happier. In the words of The Hold Stead, “Gotta stay positive!”

It was great to catch up with you yesterday, lady. Talk again soon! And here’s to a calm today and tomorrow :-)

Mama Pea April 14, 2010 at 11:51 am

I love this post. I definitely need to RELEASE more but in ways that are not destructive to myself and my sanity. You are so creative with the acrostic poems! And Heidi? Wow.

elise April 14, 2010 at 12:15 pm

ugh, i have no words about that heidi pic. moving on.
take a deep breath and remember the MOST important thing of all is that you are a healthy girl most of the time and even if you eat 4 different breakfasts, you will still be the amazing creative fun and inspiring girl that we know and love. try to cut yourself some slack…we all have weaknesses and its better that yours is good food (as opposed to, i dunno, murdering people?) not the best pep-up speech huh…whatever, im no jillian michaels, but i know that you are living well at least 90% of the time and thats a lot better than most!

runnerforever April 14, 2010 at 12:52 pm

Aw, keep your chin up and just try to move on.

Emily (A Nutritionist Eats) April 14, 2010 at 1:04 pm

Moms always know just what to say…I wonder where you learn how to do that, I should start studying now! ;)
I hope your day turns around (or already has), my morning started off not so great: late, rushing, no coconut creamer in my coffee and caribou oatmeal that had sugar in it or something. Thankfully, I was able to release all of that and realize how ridiculous I was being!

jperonto April 14, 2010 at 2:26 pm

Oh girl. You and me both. I came home to those very same easter peanut m&ms today just loaded in a bowl staring at me. Well, I can’t get stared at anymore when they’re gone right? :) Also been enjoying on the easter peanut butter m&ms! Mmmmmmmm! That pastry looks… soo… good..

Kailey (SnackFace) April 14, 2010 at 2:30 pm

Oh my gawd. You know what’s rude? Completely forgetting to respond to your friend’s text, especially when she’s having a bad day. I am so, so sorry!

Hollykins, I am so with you on all of this. It’s all about choosing your attitude, and thus, actions. We can’t choose what happens, but we can choose how to respond. It is hard to control sometimes, though!

As far as ish-y food choices go, I always think, “there’s tomorrow!” I mean, my weekends are always a diet disaster (chips, Mexicana food, margaritas, cheese casseroles, 12 servings peanut butter pretzels, brews, cheesecake shots… you understand), but I know I eat pretty cleanly Monday through Friday. I also have an uncanny ability to rationalize things, and Muffin often helps. And then I think about the average person’s diet. Average person would have thought what you pictured above was super healthy!

I don’t normally like to hate on women’s bodies, but Heidi, come on girlfriend. You look insane. And as though you’re going to topple over. And then pop your implants.

On that note, I’m going to take my cellulite–AKA natural– thighs and bod to The Post newsroom to finish up my resume. LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!

Janna~Just Flourishing April 14, 2010 at 3:11 pm

Amen! I am right there with you on the frustration which others (that picture of Heidi Montag…I just…there are truly no words) and myself.

It’s always nice to have our mama’s to turn to. They really do know exactly what to say.

Kady @ Livin, Lovin, Learnin April 14, 2010 at 3:34 pm

What a fantastic post … not because you’re having a tough time, but because we ALL have these times and the fact that you are handling it so gracefully is amazing. The “release” acrostic is soooo true and I definitely need to be reminded to not get upset about things I can’t control (no matter how hard it may be). It seems that things always turn out how they’re supposed to, so why worry? But I do agree that it’s perfectly acceptable (and necessary) to release the frustration by crying, screaming, whatever. It’s amazing how much better just doing that can make you feel sometimes. Keep smiling, beautiful :)

Ildie April 14, 2010 at 3:42 pm

I’m pretty sure that I had a day like this just yesterday, or maybe the day before. Oh who the hell am I kidding, this is every other day for me. I’m a moody, crazy ____! :)

I loved the below!

Releasing

Everything

Lets

Every

Action

Seem

Easier

Susan April 14, 2010 at 4:24 pm

Peanut M&Ms get me every. time. There’s a reason there are two “S”s in my name. And each one stands for STRESS. Worrying about tomorrow tomorrow is a good one though. You’d think I’d do it more as a procrastinator! :P

Love ya H!!!

BroccoliHut April 14, 2010 at 5:29 pm

Sorry to hear about your recent frustrations, my dear. I am the same way–I beat myself up about truly silly things. Thanks for the reminder that I CAN control my reactions to life’s little obstacles.

Katie April 14, 2010 at 6:15 pm

Oh my gosh, what a coincidence! I taught my class what acrostics were today! And I was going to include them in my post tonight. Did you sneak into my 3rd grade class unnoticed today??

Sorry about the frustration. I have been feeling a lot like that too, lately. I think when life’s schedule gets busy, my over-thinking-type-a brain goes into overdrive and I start freaking out about CONTROL. I want to control anything I can…and to be honest, I don’t control much in my life. So, thanks for the life lessons, and thank your Mama, too. :-)

Sarah @ THE FOODIE DIARIES April 14, 2010 at 7:36 pm

1. i’m obsessed with acrostic poems.
2. this is further proof we are soulmates, and i’m obsessed with you.
3. also obsessed with this post.
4. need to start diversifying my word choice portfolio if i’m gonna pull this whole “i’m a writer” thing.
5. en serio, i love you SO much. and SO needed this post. we’ve all been there. slash i’m always there. i ALWAYS get frustrated with myself. (think it’s a writer thing…) and i’m gonna join you on taking madre’s advice on being in control of the things we CAN control–and coming to terms with the fact that that ain’t errrrthang.

hope your humpdia was feliz, mi amor!

Jess April 14, 2010 at 8:50 pm

I LOVE acrostic poems! They are so fun to do–reminds me of being in elementary.

Ughhh Heidi Montag, that chick has legit problems. I almost feel bad for her!!

<3 jess
xoxo

maria April 14, 2010 at 9:58 pm

Amen, amen, amen. Sounds like something my husband would tell me–about just letting it go. I say eat healthy, and when you indulge let it just be that… an indulgence, then get back to your regular eating right after. No sweat, sista!

janetha April 15, 2010 at 1:20 pm

god, i dont keep up with tabloids so i havent seen photos like that there above.. but that is downright disgusting! who would ever want to look like that?! and also, i hate fadey clothes too. and i can totally relate to this post today as i was holiding a huge box of donuts, two coffees and a milk this morning, homegirl behind me had one single donut in her hand, and i held the door open for her.. and not even a thank you! i muttered “bitch” under my breath. sigh. whatever.. anyway, i love you! and i love acrostic poems. and i love that FREAKIN PEACH SCONE! what!

<3

Jessica April 16, 2010 at 2:21 pm

You are such. an. amazing. writer!!!! Seriously. Please never stop blogging–I adore your quirky, fun, philosophical, well-written posts way too much! :)

And please don’t beat yourself up, my love. You are such a motivated, hard-working, amazing person who really seems to be pretty in tune with her bod and knows how to treat it right! I know you SAY you don’t have balance…but we all think you do! You can’t fix the past…so just move on and make the next day better! Like yo mama says!

That peach scone really looks BOMB though. I need peaches in my life, stat! It is almost summer time, after all.
Heidi Montag makes me gag and I really PITY her….but that protein pancake sammie sounds so fun and now i’m gonna eat some HUMMUS! I LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!!!

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