rebel with a cause

by Holly on April 8, 2010

in dinner,goals,lunch,seriousness

We all know I love to-do lists.  I’m just not good at completing them.

That same theory also holds true for goal lists. Although different in scope from to-do lists, the fact remains I don’t like being told what to do.  And that is exactly what I feel like lists do.  Ultimately, me and my “don’t tell me what to do” attitude is really just a product of one thing: freedom. When I feel like my freedom and ability to be independent is being smothered, I rebel (clearly, with just cause).  There is no faster way to make me turn on you than for you to demand I do something.  The Everythingtarian family can vouch for this one.

Lists however, employ a much sneakier approach in their demands. They coax me with their altruistic motivations and hopeful promises of accomplishment but then insist I do actual work to make that happen. In the words of Stephanie Tanner, how rude! As a result of my neurotic psychosis, I make lists of all sorts (i.e. to-do, goals, movies to see, books to read, recipes to make, countries to travel to, etc.) but rarely complete them.

Despite the screwed up wiring in my brain and innate stubbornness (which is what refuses to let me change my ways), I still believe that lists, especially goal lists, are useful motivation tools.  I mean, that is the thing that gets me to write them in the first place! While feeling trapped like Mariah Carey in a size-0 dress can cause me to shun checking off my lists, it’s the personal sense of freedom knowing I can accomplish whatever I want that keeps me writing them.

And I am getting better. In fact, per my 2010 goals,  I should have credit card #1 paid off next month (C.C. #2 is only about five months behind that).  In 52 days, I’m hoping to run a sub-1:50 1/2 marathon. Banff, Canada shall be my travel destination of choice come June.  My savings are better than they have been in a LONG time.  I’m taking Spanish class and cooking up lots of new recipes.  My last goal – to write a story and get it published – is one I’ve discussed on the blog.

That’s progress, if I do say so myself.

Even with my natural hesitation to make a list knowing I may not complete it, I did create a small list of goals for the month of April (albeit about eight days late). They’re simply some ideas a freedom-loving gal like myself can choose to accomplish, if she so wishes…

  • Eat less sugar. I calculated how much sugar I ate on Tuesday; it was scary (ahem, more than 50 grams before dinner, ahem). Not all of it was “bad” sugar, but twas’ a lot of it nonetheless.
  • Devote at least one hour a week to non-blog-related writing. In the words of Liz Gilbert, I am going to commit to showing up at least one hour a week and see how it goes…
  • Cut the coke. No, not the Lindsay Lohan kind.  The Diet Coke kind. Lately, the 2-3 times per week I have D.C., it has been making me feel really icky. I’m going to *try* and cut it out completely to see how my body feels.

That’s it. They are nothing life-changing, earth-shattering or even anything to get upset about not completing. Just some thangs to keep in mind.

So, until we meet again, here are some of the day’s eats…

Yog Mess (plain Greek yog + 1 cup thawed frozen mixed berries + 1/4 cup Raspberry Galaxy Granola)

Steamed Sweet Potato + Peanut Butter (an odd, yet totally delicious combo)

Junk Salad (4 cups mixed greens, 1 T nutritional yeast, Sunshine Falafel patty, pinch crushed red pepper flakes, dollop of hummus, drizzle of Hidden Valley Light Ranch dressing)

Gena’s Banana Soft Serve (yes, I am only about a year behind on this trend)

And if you didn’t know, the only ingredients in that bowl are 2 frozen bananas, cinnamon + 1 square of dark chocolate. I kid you not.

With that, I am off to attack tonight’s to-do list.  Maybe I’ll check both my to-do and goal lists off some day, and maybe I won’t.  At least I know that if it doesn’t happen, I was a rebel…with a cause.


Jessica @ How Sweet It Is April 8, 2010 at 7:11 pm

The peanut butter looks pearlescent in the sweet potato! I just started doing banana soft serve too, and we are in LOVE.

Evan Thomas April 8, 2010 at 7:12 pm

Giving up crack, err, coke, is tough at first, but you can do it!

Gabriela (froyolover) April 8, 2010 at 7:15 pm

Awww – lovely post, girl!
To-do lists always have two sides. I´m glad you learned how to enjoy the best of it :D
YAY for PB-filled sweet ´taters!
Have a great night!
Brazilian XOXO´s,

Lauren @ Eater Not a Runner April 8, 2010 at 7:18 pm

Sweet potatoes and PB is one of my favorite combos….yum :-) Good luck on the goals!

Erica April 8, 2010 at 7:19 pm

I love to do lists. I make one every week- I’m a nut ;). Great goals. Especially like kicking the DC. I use to be a major DC addict. Now I will maybe have it one time a week if we go out. Raspberry galaxy? I haven’t tried that flavor yet …sounds yummy. Happy ALMOST weekend

brandi April 8, 2010 at 7:33 pm

you’re doing SO great on your goals! I’m proud of ya’ girly :)

Keep me posted on Honduras! Once it gets closer to plane ticket-buying time, that’s when we’ll need to know for sure, but I’ll let you know that!

Lauren April 8, 2010 at 7:39 pm

I get really overwhelmed when I feel like I am not accomplishing my to-do lists. I make them all the time and when I can’t check every single thing off for the day, I feel like I have failed. Either, I need to stop making so many damn lists or I need to take it easier of myself because I am the one setting the bar so high. Just have to keep reminding myself that it’s okay if I can’t do it all.

Even though you may think you’re not doing so well on your goals, I have to say, I wouldn’t even think to notice. So maybe you eat a little sugar and you spend more time reading blogs than doing anything more productive, but you are fantastic inside and out and I wouldn’t change one single thing about the person that you are! :)

Sherah April 8, 2010 at 8:09 pm

It looks like you’re not giving yourself quite as much credit as you deserve, but I relate to that! Feeling like I’m just a couple steps behind my goals is frustrating, but frustration is motivating, so it tends to work itself out.

Just wanted to say hi since I’ve been reading here for a few weeks! Love the positivity and how creative you are. A+ entertainment and inspiration levels! Beep boop!

Jenna April 8, 2010 at 8:12 pm

Sweet potatoes and PB? Get outta town! I have to try this combo.

Still haven’t hopped on the banana soft serve bandwagon. Probably should do that asap as well. :)

Mellissa April 8, 2010 at 8:17 pm

Oooh cinnamon and dark chocolate with the banana soft serve is a must try!

Kate April 8, 2010 at 8:53 pm

i have not yet tried the banana soft serve either. yours looks delish so i must get on this.

i have weird list habbits too. i always get so excited when i make them but a week later i am on to the next. i think it is my situational ADD kicking in. i like your new goals. small changes in habbits can lead to bigger ones.

Matt April 8, 2010 at 8:56 pm

I just rewatched Lost and it blew my mind!

Jessie April 8, 2010 at 8:57 pm

Your short term to-do list seems small, but it’s the small changes that will really make a difference! I’m not so good about getting though my lists either (and I sure do make a lot of them!), but I know that writing my list down at least makes my tasks real – and that counts for something, right? ;)

Julie @SavvyEats April 8, 2010 at 9:16 pm

52 days?! That means I get married in 52 days..eek!

To-do lists are saviors.

Madeline - Greens and Jeans April 8, 2010 at 9:25 pm

Sweet potato and pb is one of my very favorite combinations!

Brandi April 8, 2010 at 9:40 pm

I eat greek yogurt topped with a sweet potato and nut butter and cinnamon for breakfast almost every morning! It’s so dense and creamy and hits the spot!

Katie April 9, 2010 at 12:40 am

Great goals! I have similar ones, especially with sugars! I am trying to get a 40/40/20 relationship going on with my carbs/protein/fats. It’s tough getting rid of a lot of the sugary/carby cereals, but I know my body will be thanking me! I noticed how horrible I feel when I splurge on copious bowls of cereal. Not good.

Lynn @ The Actors Diet April 9, 2010 at 1:34 am

sweet potatoes and pb are such a wonderful combo. hallelujah!

Maya April 9, 2010 at 4:14 am

I think goals are pretty hard to not beat yourself up about. That’s why I try and set really small goals. That way they’re easily attainable, and hopefully you feel good by accomplishing them, causing a ripple effect!

Gena April 9, 2010 at 6:26 am

Hooray for joining the soft serve bandwagon! Looks delish.

mammaeverythingtarian April 9, 2010 at 7:22 am

YES PEOPLE THE FIRST THREE PARAGRAPHS ARE TRUE!!!!!! Very cleverly (is that a word?) written Hollace Anne

Sarah (Running To Slow Things Down) April 9, 2010 at 7:57 am

I’ll never understand why pb and sweet potatoes go together so fabulously, but they just do! :D

I would love to write more too (non-blog-related.) I used to journal all of the time and haven’t made the time for it like I should. Great to-do’s! :D

Angela @ A Healthy Fit April 9, 2010 at 7:59 am

I am the same way with goals and since I’ve made my April goals on my blog, I think I am actually doing them for the first time. Must be wanting to be able to post saying that I completed all of them, or at least made a dent.

Ok, I have to make that soft serve. I am obviously way behind you…you’ve made it already!

Chelsea @ (Chelsea's Chew and Run Fun) April 9, 2010 at 9:43 am

Your Mariah Carey freedom simile totally made my day. Haha.

I think your goals are totally doable, and I have absolute faith in your abilitiy to accomplish them!

I completely concur on the nut butter+sweet potato combo. It’s simple, odd, delicious bliss. Also, I admire the way you get such a nice cross-stitch pattern with your salad dressing! Clearly, you’ve taken some sketching classes.

samantha April 9, 2010 at 9:54 am

WE ARE TWINS. can we be real life best friends?

when i look back on my journals, i come across lists of concerts to see, movies to watch, books to read… when i realized i hadn’t followed through on ANY of these, i changed my lists to “books i have read,” “concerts i have been to,” “movies i have seen.”

Kacy April 9, 2010 at 11:03 am

I need to start doing softserve more often! I always forget about it.

Your goals look fantastic!

Mama Pea April 9, 2010 at 11:48 am

Great goals, honey pie! I have no doubt you will accomplish each and everyone, and then this blog post will be like your todo list and you’ll be checking off each little goal right on this screen!

Have a good weekend, sweets!!!

Danielle (Coffee Run) April 9, 2010 at 12:37 pm

I’m the same way about goals! When I was training for my half marathon, I would get annoyed that I “had to run X miles today” simply because it was on the plan. But without a plan…I’d probably run that long anyway.

I’m about a year behind on banana soft serve and OIAJ!

Angharad April 9, 2010 at 12:39 pm

52 days? Seriously? I need to get my butt out there!! Oh and sweet potato + pb is not weird…that (plus banana) was my pre-10 mile race dinner!

April April 9, 2010 at 12:47 pm

Is this the first time you’ve tried my beloved sweet potato and peanut butter combo?? If so, are you in pure heaven?? LOL!!

Good luck giving up sugar! I gave up gum for lent and that was a toughie!

Megan (The Runner's Kitchen) April 9, 2010 at 1:48 pm

Mmm, peanut butter + sweet potatoes sounds amazing! You could put peanut butter on ANYTHING and I’d like it, hehe.

Love your goals list – that’s something I need to do more often. Sometimes I have trouble figuring out my long term goals and I end up feeling like I’m stuck.

TGIF! Have a lovely weekend :-)

Katie April 9, 2010 at 1:59 pm

I’m the same way with lists. I feel so accomplished after writing down everything that I want to get done that I kind of forget to, er, DO them!

No worries about calling! I’ll try to be on gchat soon. Have a fabulous weekend, Miss Holly! (Her parents named her Hallelujah, the kids they call her Holly…. right? RIGHT?)

Emily (A Nutritionist Eats) April 9, 2010 at 2:22 pm

My to-do list:
Watch all vlog episodes this weekend!

Have a great weekend Holly! :)

Dawn April 9, 2010 at 2:28 pm

Great goals–I need to work on some of mine for the year!

I WANT that sweet potato! MMM!

Kristin @ Iowa Girl Eats April 9, 2010 at 2:36 pm

GREAT job with the goals, Ms. Thang! Lord, I need to hop on the eat-less-sugar-train. Seriously, you don’t want to know how many grams I ingest a day. It’s bad…I need help.

Sweet potato and peanut butter… Now that is one combo I have never seen and have never thought to try!! I’m willing though!!!

janetha April 9, 2010 at 3:52 pm

i share you love for the lists. rarely are they completed.. i know how that goes. they are just so damn fun to make! your goals are coming along quite nicely. <3 you!!!

Adrien April 9, 2010 at 7:30 pm

I’m watching my sugar intake too.. and by watching it, I’ve basically established watching it travel towards my mouth.. I haven’t managed to stop it yet.. that’s for next week, perhaps.

Love the look of PB in a yam.. on the to do list as well

Kristie April 9, 2010 at 10:53 pm

Ahhhh I hate being told what to do. Crazy biznatch really comes out when that happens.

I used to actually have a book of lists. A notebook, just dedicated to lists of my favourite things (colours, movies, actors, foods…), things I wanted to see and do etc etc. I still have it somewhere. I think it needs some updating! But I’ve only really just started introducing (and discovery the sheer joys) of daily list making into my life and how HELPFUL it is… but I’m still really bad at goal lists. I don’t know what it is… I guess I’ve always had this kind of fear maybe of thinking about the future? Of setting myself up with expectations and not completing them? Of failing? Or maybe it’s my HUGE indecisiveness that won’t even allow me to TRY to think of goals to accomplish since I couldn’t possibly decide and pinpoint what exactly the things are that I want to accomplish in the first place. And all of this is ridiculous. I’m always SO envious of people who can set themselves up with goals of the week/month/year…and complete them to boot. So right now I’m envious of your new goals. Go get em! Less sugar… now that’s one I’m afraid to even think about haha.

And uhh… I STILL haven’t tried banana soft serve. I’ve been meaning to since it first came onto the blog “scene”… but I’m really good at putting things off? Not that that’s something anyone in their right mind would EVER want to put off… perhaps this weekend. :)

norcalchic April 10, 2010 at 1:19 am

I just discovered the Banana Soft Serve recipe today! Cant wait to try it!!

Susan April 10, 2010 at 8:14 am

I can’t think of anything to comment because you totally stole the word from my mouth! I hate being told what to do, and putting something in a structured plan takes all the fun out of it. That’s why I insisted on teaching myself to play guitar, and why I don’t want to train for any races this year! Although, I do find list making to be really helpful in terms of organizing my thoughts. I usually have a million things swimming around that I’m stressing about, and putting them down relieves me of all that worrying. Now, actually completing them is a different story. I will procrastinate until the very last minute.

I can’t wait until Banff!!!! I was looking at hiking boots the other day :)

Adam April 10, 2010 at 12:13 pm

I have never heard anyone say it better than this! You are spot on with your views on lists and goals. I feel the exact same way and you summed up my personality perfectly with the fact that lists are always fun to make but slightly discouraging when you see that you have not completed them. I find that taking my life day by day and trying to accomplish as much as possible, than maybe making a list or two of the things i HAVE accomplished, rather than need to, makes my day that much brighter! By the way, if you need are looking at specific hiking spots in Banff and wonder if they are just as beautiful as the pics or aren’t really worth your time, let me know. I have a lot of friends that hike there all of the time and i have been planning a trip out there for awhile as well :)

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