Under Pressure

by Holly on January 14, 2010

in breakfast,dinner,lunch,seriousness,workouts

There is a certain Facebook group to which I belong that exemplifies a lot about me: Perfectionist Procrastinators.

I am Type A in the respect that I expect a lot of myself.  I put a lot of pressure on myself to do well, please others, help others and take good care of myself.  However, I just like to wait until the last minute to do these things.  Consequently, I end up wondering why I have problems making decisions, completing things on-time and creating undue stress. Oh yeah, and I usually get mad at myself in the process as well.

Sometimes I need to step back, expect less of myself (yes, less!) and stop putting so much pressure on myself.  After reading a wonderful post from my dear friend Kailey, I hearby announce my participation in the Love and Live Yo’ Life Challenge (fo’ life!).  Because really, it’s the only real challenge worth taking.

If I am going to skip the gym, I need to make and accept that decision, instead of bemoaning the fact I didn’t go the gym the rest of the night.  If I am going to eat nine cookies, I need to accept it and move on.  Acceptance, who woulda thunk it? One of my best friends in the entire world Ashley reminded me earlier this week that life is NOT “all or nothing.”  Sometimes I get caught up in that perfectionistic mindset.

I constantly need to remind myself every little bit you can do is worth it. Going to the gym, even for 20 minutes, is better than nothing at all.  I ate candy today, but ya know what? I didn’t go ahead and eat ice cream for dinner because I ruined a day of “healthy eating.”  Instead, I filled up with a big salad. It’s about balance. And even us everythingtarians need a refresher course every now and again.

After that rant (which I believe was probably more for my sanity than yours), let’s lighten things up a bit…

Breakfast was more Banana Oats, which are so simple and so delish!  Since the lighting was crappy, I just thought I would give you a nice set-up (flash included) of how yours truly enjoys her breakfast in the morn…

1/2 cup oats
1/2 cup water + 1/2 cup org. skim milk
1 smashed naner
1/2 tbsp. maple syrup
LOTS of cinnamon
1 large scoop PB
1 tbsp. ground flax

And my ghetto flip phone, which used to be cool about five years ago, but now has been replaced with bigger and non-flippable phones.

Throughout the day, I took the snacky route again because sometimes, you just want a bit of everything.  First, 1 sliced cucumber + an orange (which are seriously SO TASTY right now!) munched throughout the morning…

Then it was some of Stacy’s Multigrain Pita Chips alongside some Pumpkin Pie Hummus

…which I realized seriously looks like baby poo, but trust me – it’s DELICIOUS!

Post-hummus/pita action, I dug into some Starburst (x 2).

Gah, I <3 Starburst.  So good.

I also was FORCED (yes, forced!) to try a bacon-flavored Jelly Belly.  Ummmm…it tasted like motor oil, and I about vommed in the office trash can.  Seriously, perhaps the WORST thing I have ever put in my mouth.  I then had to eat two Bit O’ Honeys (another fave) to wash out the horrendous oil taste lingering in the back of my throat.  Bloggies kids – do NOT try that at home!

Late afternoon, I devoured a mediocre yog mess.  I say mediocre because it lacked an important ingredient: NUT BUTTER!  What was I thinking forgetting that component?!?!?

1 cup nonfat plain Greek yog
2-3 tbsp. gingersnap granola
1 sliced naner
2 pumpkin ginger cookies from Katharina

Last night, I took my advice to take the pressure off myself and miraculously completed a restorative 105-minute yoga podcast from Senor Farmar.  I woke up slightly sore today, but that didn’t stop me from heading to the gym after work to take a cue from yesterday’s advice and ellipticalled for 45 minutes with 4-pound handweights a la Kailey.

Tomorrow, I plan on a killer walking on incline workout a la Molly (which if you haven’t, check out her blog because she is teaching abroad in Japan!).

When I arrived home, I needed dinner and FAST!

two handfuls spinach
carrot sticks
pepperjack cheese shavings
garbanzo beans
1/2 sliced green pepper
Amy’s California Burger
Stacy’s Multigrain Pita Chips

I literally cannot remember the last time I had a salad.  Twas’ glorious.

Now, I am eating another orange, then off to shower and crawl in bed with my next Netflix movie!

If you made it through this monster ramble of a post, you deserve an award.  Or better yet, pay it forward by visiting the Red Cross, Food for the Hungry or Yele and donate as much as you can to the Haiti relief efforts.  It’s so sad to see the horrible suffering the already impoverished country is going through.  They need all our support, donations and prayers!

Do you put a lot of pressure on yourself? See above.

What is your favorite candy? All time favorite…Peanut M&Ms, Sweettarts, Mambas and Almond Joys!

(P.S. These questions seem quite trivial following the Haiti donation request, but just go with it).


adrienmelaine January 14, 2010 at 8:11 pm

You are awesome. Just found your blog, thought you should know how I felt.

Lauren @ Eater Not a Runner January 14, 2010 at 8:23 pm

Yes I tend to do the same thing but have tried to be more forgiving lately :-)

Peanut m&ms and reese’s cups!!

Matt January 14, 2010 at 8:27 pm

I am actually pretty good about not putting pressure on myself. I am pretty laid back most of the time, except I freak out about the TINY things.

All time favorite is Snickers!

Evan Thomas January 14, 2010 at 8:29 pm

1. So so much. It’s ridonculous. I think posts like this are necessary to read to level myself out. Thank you :-)
2. Pre-blogging/eating shift it was Reeses’ cups(holiday shapes, ftw) and fastbreak bars. Now it’s Newman’s cups and milk chocolate covered peanut sundrops. I love how things can change and be the same :-)

katherine January 14, 2010 at 8:30 pm

I put way too much pressure on myself! Races, weight loss, blogging, work, you name it. If I’m not doing my best, I’m beating myself up for it!

My favorite candy is probably Take 5. SO GOOD

Erin January 14, 2010 at 8:33 pm

Totally made a Red Cross donation today!

I put way too much pressure on myself and then end up disappointed sometimes. Other times, I go above and beyond my own expectations…that’s always nice.

Fave candy are those mini Reese’s PB Cups. The regular sized ones won’t do, they MUST be minis!

Morgan January 14, 2010 at 8:35 pm

I do, and I need to just accept that I am who I am, and there are just some things which I cannot change! I have to always remind myself “You are enough”!
As for candy, I love 3 musketeers, skor bars, anything with toffee!

daintyvegan January 14, 2010 at 8:39 pm

I definitely put a lot of pressure on myself and like you, I’m a bit of a perfectionist. Usually when it comes to something, if I don’t do it right (food, exercise, whatever) then I feel as if I’ve blown it. Luckily I’m doing a fairly good job of getting that all-or-nothing attitude under control. :)

My favorite candy.. I’m not a candy person. At all. :O I love chocolate though.. does that count?

Molly January 14, 2010 at 8:41 pm

Thanks for the shout-out Holly! I failed my own advice yesterday. Since I could see my breath in my own kitchen, I opted out of leaving the house. I did more of a mental workout last night :) ALLLLL time favorite- Peanut Butter M&M’s, or Reece’s. Actually anything with PB. ANNND, I’m def, def Type A all the way. Soo, a little too hard on myself…most of the time. The sun is shining in Japan today folks. Hallelujah :) Let me know how the tread incline walk goes!!! Good luck!

Jessica @ How Sweet It Is January 14, 2010 at 9:04 pm

I am really type A and do tend to put pressure on myself. As I’ve gotten older Im not sure if I’ve stopped or its just getting better. But either way, I tend to handle the stress and pressure a bit better!

Low January 14, 2010 at 9:24 pm

Amen sister! I completely agree with everything you said!

And I need to try and orange ASAP! I mean I’ve had one before… but not recently :)

Erica January 14, 2010 at 9:29 pm

Good lord do I put pressure on myself! I’m totally my own worst critic. I need to lighten it up too amen! I need to make that pumpkin pie hummus- right this second! Love salsa on salads- its like the best dressing ever. Favorite candy- the ones that look like raspberries and blackberries <3

Maya January 14, 2010 at 9:38 pm

Gah! I have definite type A personality traits as well! I think bloggers definitely need to cut ourselves some slack, thanks for the reminder!

I had a GLORIOUS salad for dinner, too, featuring meatless meatballs, sweet taters, brussel sprouts, everything chips, grape tomatoes, hummus, and bbq sauce. GASM.

K January 14, 2010 at 9:39 pm

Doesn’t letting all of your feelings out in the blog just feel so much better! It’s like you can finally say, “Ahh…”

Stacy’s Pita Crack! Love it!

1. It varies – in some aspects I put a TON of pressure on myself but in other aspects of my life I’m not as much of a drill sargent.

Jenna January 14, 2010 at 9:39 pm

Great post holly!
Yes! I try to be perfect and successful at everything I do, and I hate it when things don’t go my way… Call me stubborn perhaps?
Salad beast looks great!
And my fav candy would be skittles, starburst, reeses, peppermint patties and sweedish fish. Gah! I could go on and on all day!

elise January 14, 2010 at 9:41 pm

fyi – i love you. and it makes me soopah :) to read your “rants” and kailey’s love yo self monologues. i feel right at home.

ps i need to join that club.

Susan January 14, 2010 at 9:48 pm

I am ON for this challenge! All the other “challenges” out there do not appeal to me, but I am feelin’ this one fosho. Happiness and balance should be the two most imporant components of a healthy life, not how many miles you can run or how many stalks of veg you can stuff yourself with each day. Here here!

And my fave candy are dark chocolate peanut M & Ms, but I have so much trouble finding them : (

PS – I’m so glad you were able to comment!!!!!!

Madeline @ GreensAndJeans January 14, 2010 at 10:57 pm

I put unnecessary pressure on myself all of the time. Like anyone actually cares if I forget to vacuum my living room or if I walk for two minutes during my run… My favorite candy is anything with peanuts or peanut butter. Peanut m&ms are very high on the list.

katie January 14, 2010 at 11:01 pm

hey girl! LOVE what you said about putting pressure on yourself-i can totally relate. i put myself to such a high standard..its not fair to ME! or any of us!!


Averie (LoveVeggiesAndYoga) January 15, 2010 at 12:41 am

“replaced with bigger and non-flippable phones.”–Do tell! I have been posting this week bout phone dilemas! and wondering if i should get the iphone or stick w/ my crackberry. att vs verizon. decisions. i tell ya.

Fave candy. Choc anything.
Undue pressure. Every minute of my life. perfectionist at heart, if you couldnt already tell. :)

Nicole @ Geek Turned Athlete January 15, 2010 at 12:55 am

Um, could we be twins with our curly hair and procrastinating perfectionistic behaviors? Lately, I have been trying to change my mindset as well. School started last week, and I’m trying to stay on top of things so I don’t end up a nervous wreck when a paper is due in 10 hours and I had 2 months to do it!

Good luck lady!!!

Shelley January 15, 2010 at 1:02 am

i love your posts – always! delicious oats :)
& my favorite candy is gobstoppers or sour patch kids!

Lexi January 15, 2010 at 5:15 am

just found your blog and I love it! can’t wait to keep reading xoxox

Caitlin January 15, 2010 at 7:58 am

I love this post! I am definetly a type A person and put way to much pressure on myself. I can really relate.
p.s.M&Ms are a godsend ;)
thanks for the great post!

Jenny January 15, 2010 at 8:07 am

Brilliant! I’m right there with you on the perfectionist mindset, and I do tend to put things off, because I’ve found that when something stresses me out (grad school applications) I want to avoid the heck out of it. Not conducive to productivity. But you’re so right, if we would just start accepting certain things and moving on, things will fall into place much more smoothly!

Fave candy? Reese’s cups, no question ;)

April January 15, 2010 at 8:51 am

I don’t think your hummus looks like poo.. have you seen my latest snacks?? They look much worse. LOL

My favorite candy would have to be reese’s pieces!

LindsayRuns January 15, 2010 at 8:56 am

What a lovely reminder! Thanks!

Favorite candy is…. I don’t have a favorite! Tops are Heath bar, hersh’s cookies and creme, snickers, twizlers, and take 5

Justine January 15, 2010 at 9:11 am

Oh man…I LOVE mambas too! I didnt think anyone else loved them like I do. Along the lines of a chocolatey candy, I really like York Peppermint Patties-delish!

Kailey (SnackFace) January 15, 2010 at 9:21 am

HOLLY!!!!! I am so completely touched right now. Thank you for the shout-out and the “rant” of your own. It’s so true that living and loving our lives should truly be the focus. I was just thinking as I washed dishes this morning, isn’t that how Europeans are? And they don’t work out at all, right? Now that sounds like a good way to be.

But like you, I put a ton of pressure on myself. I want to get a 4.0, blog daily, go out nightly (haha ok, maybe 2-3 times a week–that’s a lot), workout, spend time with Muff, go to functions for choir, get a job…the list goes on. But how can we possibly devote 100percent of our everything to all of these? It’s IMPOSSIBILE.

Oh! A kid sat behind me yesterday in Film who smelled like strawberry Starburst (my fave). I was so jealous. My favorite candy is Reece’s, though. Anything. Pieces, cups, Fast Breaks. Choc+PB=Life. Although, I really love Snickers too!

Damn, I need to start liking salads again. I think it’s all in the dressing. I need out of my balsamic rut. It’s makin’ me gag.

Anyway, I’m off to back and GO HOME!!!! Couldn’t be more excited. LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!!!!

Jordan January 15, 2010 at 9:39 am

Great post Lady! I tend to just get that feeling of being overwhelmed and then I get all confused til I get stressed then I manage to talk myself out of it so I see where you’re going here.
Good to just find the moments to reference back to, accept, know what you need to do and move forward.
Candy- I’ve been all over these Joyva sesame crunch candies lately, and I’ve been stuffing dates with almonds and coconut butter and PB for a nighttime snackie.
As a kid I loved Skittles and Razzles. Remember Razzles? is it a powder? is it a candy? is it a gum? what the hell is it? it’s delicious
Why do I always write novels as my comments to you?

Sarah (Running To Slow Things Down) January 15, 2010 at 10:24 am

There are definitely certain areas in my life that I put a lot of pressure on. Learning to de-pressurize is a constant goal of mine, because I’ve decided that life is too precious to spend worrying or putting extra pressure on myself. Everything works out. :D

Favorite candy? Hmm…probably peanut butter cups and hershey kisses…preferrably coconut filled hershey kisses. ;)

Kate January 15, 2010 at 10:55 am

i put pressure on myself about some stuff but not others. healthy eating is definately something i have an all or nothing attitude about. really working on changing that one!

my fav candy? peanut butter cups for sure!

Mama Pea January 15, 2010 at 10:58 am

I totally want in on this challenge. How about a “Whittle Your Anxiety About Food and Body Issues, Perfectionism and Self Loathing?” ;) So, yeah, I put a lot of pressure on myself…including pressure to stay away from the best candy of all time: Reeses PB or pieces. Duh.

evan January 15, 2010 at 11:33 am

amen!! i’m constantly working on this, as a girl who loves her food, booze and drunk food after boozing. it’s all about moderation, but at our age it’s so hard to achieve. i’m in on this challenge :)

Chrysta January 15, 2010 at 12:07 pm

omg I put tons of pressure on myself. Im a classic type A personality too but I really trying to work hard on balancing myself out more. No need to keep on stressin! Favorite candy? hhmm…id say anything with chocolate and PB gets my vote!! Take care!

BroccoliHut January 15, 2010 at 12:42 pm

Oh man, I can so relate to this post. I put a lot of a pressure on myself to do everything well, nay, THE BEST. I, too, get stuck in am extremist mentality: everything is black or white, all or nothing. I think my endeavor to become more flexible kinda goes along with getting over my overly perfectionistic tendencies. Anyway, all this rambling about myself is just to say–I know what you’re feeling!
PS Love the looks of that burger salad:)

Katie January 15, 2010 at 1:06 pm

Ahh, I am the pressure/guilty queen…only to myself (I hope!)…I pressure myself, and then feel guilty if I don’t do something…stupid emotion. Guilt is pointless, I am trying to teach myself that on a daily basis.

I had a yogurt mess for lunch today and I thought of you. And I have an old (I mean OLD) stupid flip phone, too. I’ll have to take a picture for you, you will laugh.

Anne January 15, 2010 at 2:19 pm

I totally know what you mean about the perfectionist thing. I’ve struggled with that mindset since I can remember, and I’m FINALLY starting to learn how to just give myself a break sometimes. It’s so hard!

My fave candy is reeses pb cups!

Megan (The Runner's Kitchen) January 15, 2010 at 3:14 pm

I think many of us bloggers are “type A’s” and “over-achievers” and while this can be good in a lot of situations (career, school work) it can REALLY take its toll. I definitely get up in the “all or nothing” trap, but I’m slowly learning to give myself a break.

I am super impressed with your 75 minute yoga sesh – that takes serious energy and attention. Rock on!

My fav candy? Oh lord. So many! I love Reese’s pb cups, dark chocolate with sea salt, chocolate covered pretzels, Lindt truffles, mmmm. And I used to have a thing for Swedish fish…I could see that being re-kindled soon.

Megan (The Runner's Kitchen) January 15, 2010 at 3:15 pm

OMG I just realized your yoga sesh was 105 minutes, not 75 minutes. Dang girl, you are my yogi idol.

Lindsey @ Eat, Read, Run January 15, 2010 at 3:22 pm

I put a ton of pressure on myself, but I’m also a huge procrastinator. They don’t really fit together well if you’re trying to check things of your “to do list.”

Favorite candy – those sour patch watermelons. I can eat a whole bag in one sitting. And then my tongue burns.

Jenny January 15, 2010 at 5:58 pm

holy wisdom! Holly-bear, this challenge epitomizes every struggle i’m trying to overcome in life right now. I DWELL on my shortcomings.. the fact that maybe I didn’t practice yoga for as long as I should or that I had one too many truffles and then feel well, shitty – for lack of a better word, for the rest of the day. It’s ridic! all I wanna do is live my lifeeeeee.. and give you hugs and kisses! Love you so much and thanks for being such freakin’ star! You’re my inspiration :) xoxoxo

Jenny January 15, 2010 at 5:59 pm

p.s. your celly is totes vintage!

Katie January 15, 2010 at 8:33 pm

I could take a hint or two from you and Kailey… and I probably should! I guess I don’t always identify when i put the pressure on myself, but I know that it doesn’t feel good!

Also, WAY TO GO with a 105 minute podcast! Jeezy chreezy, lady, I am IMPRESSED.

Chelsea @ (Chelsea's Chew and Run Fun) January 16, 2010 at 9:11 am

Holly! You deserve to give yourself high fives, not bitch slaps! You’re one of the most active, upbeat, balanced ladies.

I, too, beat myself up over ridiculous things all the time and hold myself accountable for too much. A recent example was of something small: I had my best friend over for pizza, while showing her what toppings I have, I lamented the fact that there was no garlic salt. I revealed a lot of guilt about this, to which she sarcastically responded, “Oh no, Chelsea! YOU don’t have GARLIC SALT? I’m outta here!”

Acceptance is a major part of maintaining a positive attitude. Plus, it’s such a relief to just let things be what they are and release control over them.

I want to rip that pumpkin hummus right off the computer screen! Love you, have a great weekend!

Susan January 16, 2010 at 5:46 pm

I love that salad! Salsa, veggie burger, carrots… love it all…

I have a tendency to think that other people are putting pressure on me when they’re really not. I always think parents, bosses, etc, expect me to do things. But I think it’s just me being a crazy person and inadvertently putting more pressure on myself than I need to. They just want me to be successful!

All time favourite candy includes Fuzzy Peaches, Tootsie Pops and licorice. But I don’t tend to discriminate when it comes to candy ;)

janetha January 17, 2010 at 11:59 pm

thank you for the first few paragraphs of this post. they are JUST what i needed to read. i went on a cereal bender :P IT IS JUST CEREAL. i need to remember that. its not freaking heroin. ohhh i LOVE starburst! i havent had one in over a year! i forgot about them. i used to always open them with my tongue. haha. oh i love you! 2 more posts to read! yaaaa

Cindy January 18, 2010 at 1:33 pm

yes, I would live a stress free life if I could turn off my HEAD.

My Name is Cindy and I am a perfectionist…


gummy worms. hands down. Iam 457 days off them now. woo hoo.

like the neon glow in the dark sugar coated ones that does who knows what to your body after you eat them.

and I am afraid of Chemo.


Bekah January 19, 2010 at 9:11 pm

Heheh your little “for your sanity” rant, was for my sanity too! So thank you for sharing your feelings Holly, you always seem to make me feel less stressed/better. :)

As for perfectionism, I agree with you 100%, I’m def one of those type A’s, yet I also consider myself a lazy gal half the time. I think everyone is a procrastinator/lazy ass to a certain extent. Some more than others of course!

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